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[Robin]

A tiny part of her was almost pleased that she had thrown Steven off. But everything Alyssa had given him was the complete truth. Looking back at him she noticed the eerie similarity between Stevan's eyes and Ryan's. Hearing him respond Alyssa nodded in a fairly solemn manner, though a smile almost began on her lips as he spoke about Ryan. Then it was onto the next question and Alyssa had to laugh. " is there such thing and an impersonal question with you Steven?" But she be me silent again after this and listened. " I did love Jason, or I thought I did. But I'll tell you what I told Ryan. As crazy and stupid as it might sound, I believe you only get one person in your life that can make you feel constantly incredible and loved and strong. And Ryan was, is, mine. So it wasn't enough, and after all these years I think I always knew that." Answering his next question, Alyssa continued, " and maybe it's naive but I don't care. I do well on my own so money isn't an issue. It never was with us. As long as he's happy I know we can figure it out. His scars, as much as they scare me, are his past and though I dont have them on my wrist, the scars I have in my head and in my heart are painful too? I wasn't always okay either when he left. And you Steven, I could never not want you around because when I wasn't there, and even now that I am, he needs you and your good for him. And for that I can never thank you enough" she murmured, her voice growing quietly and shaky with feeling as she looked over at him. After pausing a moment she spoke up again, murmuring softly as she brushed a quivering hand through her golden locks. Finding the strength to, Alyssa looked up at him again, "I haven't talked about this with Ryan yet. I couldn't figure out how to tell him and I didn't want him feeling anymore guilt over leaving me. Because he wanted what was best for me, and that's how he thought I could get it. But, after he left, I wasn't...i wasn't totally stable and I just felt so helpless, depressed, I didn't want to breathe because it hurt to know he wasn't going to be there. I didn t leave my house for a week. And even after I started recovering, when I went away to Oxford, I fell apart sometimes during that first year or so, I got depressed again and I wanted to find some control. So, I started not eating. That was my control. I couldn't get Ryan back, I felt helpless, like I could never be happy again. Eventually my friend Lizzie confronted me about it. And I'm glad, she probably saved my life. So I got help, they diagnosed me as an anorexic. I turned my life around then. I'm okay today. But my last is still my last. I love Ryan the way he is, scars and all. And I'm sure he feels exactly the same way about me." By this point the tears were visible in the blonde's wide green eyes as she looked over at Steven. 

[Renny]

Steven listened. He didn't say anything, although his eyes flickered, softening to round blue moons. He listened to her soft voice and suddenly he embraced her in a tight hug. It wasn't anything special. Steven had had his own problems, mostly with bulimia, instead of anorexia, but he'd not eaten at times. He knew how hard it was, hence the hug. Ryan had helped him with that. He'd been in and out of the hospital, but mostly in. He'd been a model, pushed pretty hard by his parents due to his pretty looks. He'd been skin and bones, and he'd stood in the studio in too loose jeans that had once fit perfectly. In had stumbled a young guy, a heavy camera around his neck. Ryan Callahan with the big blue eyes, long sleeves and white bandages poking out of his sleeves. Steven had turned, hugging around his body trying to protect him. Steven remembered how gentle Ryan was, how he handled Steven with care and love. Later on, Steven quit modelling and Ryan's father died. From then they're friendship had grown. Steven gained back control, and the weight he had lost. Ryan lit his razors on fire, and together, they moved to New York. And then the rest is history from then. Steven pulled back away from Alyssa and rubbed frantically at his eyes. Luckily the store was almost completely empty except a cashier behind the desk fiddling on her phone and an old bitty in the back searching through watches. "Sorry. I understand completely." He said softly, putting his hands in his pockets. "Bulimia. From when I was thirteen to about twenty." He said with a slightly awkward cough. "Thank Ryan," he waved his hand, trying to allude to the fact that Ryan saved him.

[Robin]

alyssa was on the verge of genuinely bursting into tears when Steven hugged her. It had been so long since she'd talked about this, spoken about it out loud. Because it had been behind her, but being back with Ryan was making her realize that your past was always with you, good and bad. And maybe that was okay. She smiled resting against Steven and holding onto him tightly. Definitely More in a sisterly way than romantic, but still very tender, familiar. Though Steven didn't speak she new there was so much in his head, the look in those blue eyes gave her all Alyssa needed to know. It was enough to know he also understood her completely, which was a relief. When he pulled back Alyssa nodded at him a hint of a sad smile playing on her thin lips. " I always do" she replied softly, a knowing look in her emerald gaze.shaking it all off, Alyssa clearer her throat and spoke up, a more joking tone to her voice " I think that fills our roommate-girlfriend bonding quota for the day, what do you say we get back? After this I could use a good drink and some food. And some tv" 

skip? What to?


btw I seriously love your siggie<3 we really need to do a game of thrones plot sometime(:

[Renny]

hmm. what should we skip to?
maybe Alyssa's mom talking to Ryan about her cheating on him? idk.

OMG YES. I love that scene xD but seriously, fuck the king

[Robin]

Yeah sure, who's rping her ? Because I'm still a little confused, exactly what is she gonna say?

Oh another idea I had, this can be now or later but I'm thinking they should have a pregnancy scare or something like that

And always, but seriously we need to. You and me and GoT would be amazing and totally insane

[Renny]

hmm, I don't know.
hmm, let's do the pregnancy scare? should the conflict be that she doesn't know if it is Jason's or Ryan's?

omg it would be. crazy as hell xD it would be fun and awesome.

[Robin]

Yeah sure and then also the basics of what to do if she is and Ryan can be like freaking about not being good enough or able to support them

So first we have to start with the sexytimes xd

And ikr, we must actually do this, soon

Btw did you get to do kit yet?

[Renny]

haha yes.
of course, sexytimes<3
I'll have Steven go out to a bar or something, leaving Ryan and Alyss to a romantic night.

yessss. we must.
I'm working on Kit<3

[Robin]

Kk

Poor Steven xd
The two of the make him crazy , you mind starting?

We can either do it at the apartment or I was thinking in the photography studio after hours


Soon then. I'll make a thread in a little bit

And kk thanks bby<4

[Renny]

omg I know.
hmm. I like the studio idea.
how would you like me to start?

okie dokie.

[Robin]

Yeah sure(:
And if it's not too much trouble, do kit as well?

[Renny]

After finishing up a shoot, Ryan lingered after saying good-bye to his client, Brooks Penner. He clicked through the pictures, smiling at the soft beauty of them. Brooks had such an interesting look, intense and wicked, but in the half-light, he looked almost vulnerable. The pictures were black and gray, hued with blue. He loaded them on the computer and picked up his phone to text Alyss. They didn't have much privacy at the apartment, plus Steven was going out, so he'd probably bring someone home. So, Ryan kept the studio to himself. He used the same set up as the previous shoot, the soft white couches, the candles burning low, and rose petals. However, this shoot was completely private. No one would see the pictures, if Alyss was okay with it. He'd photographed her before, but never in a sexual way. He had never been that adventurous. Wanna come over to the studio? I have a surprise ;D He texted, hitting send before he could regret it. He rubbed his palms against his jeans, taking in a deep breath. He didn't know why he felt nervous, they'd had sex before. Just, this felt different.

[Robin]

steven and Alyssa were just getting back to the apartment when she felt her phone buzz in her pocket. She picked it up and motioned for Steven to go inside, that she'd follow him inside in a second. Once he was gone Alyssa checked her messages and paused a moment, rereading what Ryan had written her. Oh god. This was happening, she had known Ryan long enough to get all of the subtext of that message. Part of her was a little bit terrified, it had been five years and well, this was happening! Taking a deep breath Alyssa tried to shake her nerves off and texted him back: of course, I'm headed right over... She sent it quickly then yelled inside " hey Steven, I'm headed out again. I'll be back later!" And with that she headed back down to the studio. She paused a moment outside the door, looking through the glass to see Ryan nervously pacing the floor. Alyssa had to smile, he looked practically as shaken up as she felt.. But it was okay, it was them. Taking one last deep breath she opened the door slowly and stepped inside, crossing the floor to reach him. She stood infront of him looking a bit apprehensive, green eyes wide, a few absent locks of golden falling across her face. " hey" she murmured, a hunt of a smile playing across her lips. She suddenly realized she wasn't nervous anymore, looking at him it all just melted away and nothing was there besides her and Ryan. Just how it ought to be.

[Renny]

Ryan saw her, and his nervousness melted away. He slipped his fingers into the loops of her jeans with one hand, and pulled her into him. That same hand brushed her golden locks back, thumb sweeping over her cheek. "I wanted to try something new." His voice was low and husky, as he leaned down, his lips inches from hers. He lifted the camera in his other hand. "I wanted to take pictures with you," his voice held a hint of lowness. His blue eyes were wide, pupils blown in the dim light and his lips parted slightly as he panted slightly. "If that's okay." he added, dipping his head to kiss the column of her neck. He hoped, and he pretty much knew she knew what he meant. He slid his hands down her back, feeling the curve of her spine. If she wasn't up to adding the element of taking intimate photos, Ryan was okay with that. They'd still have this romantic backdrop.

[Robin]

Alyssa smiled, moving as he pulled her and wrapped her arms loosely around her neck, feeling her heart start to race as he spoke. It was funny almost, just how much Ryan could make her feel. For years it had been all sadness and loneliness. But now, Alyssa felt completely electrified. She looked up at him, inches apart. This was the definition of torture, that he was so close yet she wasn't totally wrapped around him. Of course, Ryan knew that. He just loved too push her buttons. Hearing his request, Alyssa was a tiny bit surprised, but not off put or wanting to stop. Quite the contrary, she felt excited. This felt totally different. And she liked it. Because five years ago they'd always been sweet with each other, and that was fine, it was what she loved about Ryan. But they were different people. They'd changed. And now this seemed like a pretty good idea. She opened her mouth to reply but then couldn't, his lips were against her neck and she felt like she couldn't manage a rational sounding sentence. Mercifully he pulled away slightly and she whispered back, running her fingers slowly down his arm " you know I can never say no to you" she murmured, wrapping her arms tightly around his neck once more and kidding him deeply. Oh yeah, she was a total goner now. No turning back,